Vice

Vice... is a cruel and terrible thing. It makes you do things that you hate. But everyone already knows that. I feel as though I need to talk about it anyway, because it might get me away from it... or at least a step back from it. Vice... it gets in your head, and makes you do things that your soul is telling you is SO wrong, things that you know is hurting others, and God. I once heard this saying, "Once you are around something enough or hear it enough you begin to believe it and begin to live it." How true can this statement be? I mean come on... for example you KNOW that watching videos of immodesty and nudity are wrong, and yet, you find yourself doing it anyway. Say you watch a TV show that is full of this stuff, and you think "this is so wrong" but you keep watching it to see if it is going to get better, cause maybe it was just "one episode". But than you keep going and you start convincing yourself that "I am not doing it so it really isn't THAT bad." Well guess what, reality check, it's just as bad. It doesn't change the fact that you are still watching immodest things. Think about when a bad commercial comes on TV and you cover a child's eyes and say "don't watch that it's not good". Well tell me... what makes it good for your eyes and not the child's? You need to think like a child, for only then will you be able to be fully worthy of God. I can not tell you how many times this has happened to me. It eats me up inside, and YET... I continue anyway. I don't seek the help of the Lord and I don't try to change even though it is eating away at me. Why? You might ask yourself because of pride, because no matter what, I am too selfish and prideful to ask the Lord for his help. The only thing that will help you is the Lord. You need to dump the lazy thoughts and get you butt into gear. You have to start praying, asking Him for His help. Even ask our Blessed Mother, the Mother of God, for help. Something that has always helped me is whenever vice starts creeping in I SCREAM her name, because the devil hates the sound of Our Lady's name, for she is the one that gave birth the our Savor. Unfortunately I have started to give up this habit, and have started to fall into the same trap that the rest of the world has. The trap of vice, and convincing myself that it isn't "That bad". So know I ask the Lord for His help, although I am not worthy of it, I ask for His loving mercy to help me change my ways.